I’m doing something I probably should have done a long time ago.
If you saw Rose’s post, you know that Breezy and her friends have now ‘taken control’ of the Pixie Chat. But, you do not know the full story.
(Swearing, bullying, and a whole lot of bystander effect)
The full story begins a long, long time ago.
Three years, actually.
Three years ago, Dalila and I flew onto Worlize, excited to check out one of the remakes we’d heard about. We were so young back then, it makes me laugh at how silly we were. I must have been just scraping 11, and Dal was eight or nine.
In Acorn Summit, we met Gwyn, who introduced us to a whole new world of fairy friends. It seemed like we’d found a new place to be ourselves after Pixie Hollow’s closing.
Sadly, it wouldn’t last long.
A few months later, Seastorm (on an alternate account) accused Dalila of calling her a bitch and telling her to “go kill herself”.
Because Dal couldn’t be considered a tween at the time, and Magic Cookie (the alternate account) couldn’t procure screenshots of the actual event, I got pissed.
The group of girls were consoling Cookie and insulting Dal, even going so far as to insinuate that DALILA should kill or harm herself.
I was madder than a hornet’s nest on fire.
So, yes, I went off at them. Names were called, insults shot off, and, after everything, neither one of us came out unscathed. Dalila logged out of her account and felt too ashamed to show her face that she didn’t log in again for years.
Now friendless and alone, I moved on to other things.
One day, a girl named Tentacle Therapist stumbled into my life. With her came silly jokes, impromptu parties, and it seemed like a stray ray of sunshine had decided to shine into my life.
Tentacle was, admittedly, a little rough around the edges, but she was my friend.
Unfortunately, it seemed like I couldn’t even have that.
For reasons I did not know, Tentacle did not like the Worlize Pixie Hollow community. I can’t say I blame her, of course, with the experiences I had had with them.
But, when Tentacle said she wanted to go after Gwyn for using copyrighted materials without giving proper credit, I jumped at the chance.
Who wouldn’t want revenge on someone who had caused their best friend to exile themselves?
Tentacle, her friend Seven-Foot Lizard and myself went after Gwyn, eventually getting a written agreement that she would not use copyrighted materials without getting permission, and would not claim the edits she made with said materials as entirely her own (as she had been doing).
Of course, Gwyn told everyone in the Pixie Hollow community what Tentacle, Lizard, and I had done, branding us as “hackers”.
What makes a hacker?
The dictionary calls it:
“Any person who uses computers to gain unauthorized access to data.”
Does the above make us “super skillz hacker girlz”? To the WPHC, it apparently did.
I’ll skip over the little stuff to the mess that is Julie’s relationship with me.
Insignificant skirmishes, small arguments, and run-ins with the WPHC led to them telling new ‘recruits’ about me.
I greeted their terrified ‘Are you gonna hackz me too?’s with a sarcastic remark about my reputation preceding me.
Apparently, one of those new recruits was Julie Tulipblossom.
For some reason, she and Harmony took a particular hating to me.
I didn’t know who the frogs they were, and didn’t particularly care enough to find out. They had made it painfully clear they didn’t like me, so why should I bother with them?
Well, they made me have to bother with them.
Not so slowly, but surely, they began turning other pixies (the ones I could stand to be around without starting an argument over their many lies) against me.
Rosofe, Flame, and Galaxy were the biggest. They put up warnings in their homes to mute and ban me on sight, and frequently sought me out to insult me.
I tried to take it all in stride. After all, I had Tentacle and Lizard to back me up! They were some of the best friends I’ve ever had.
Then, along came Baby Peanut, a newbie whose hate of me had been nurtured by the WPHC.
I’d like to clarify, at this point, I didn’t know who the heck these people were. They hadn’t been around when Dal had been shunned, and they hadn’t been there when we’d confronted Gwyn about copyright.
Baby Peanut is one of the worst people I’ve ever had the displeasure of meeting. Don’t let my calm manner fool you, even the mention of her name gets my blood boiling.
Some of the things she did:
- Be extremely racist to me
- Tell Tentacle Therapist, my very good friend, to “get raped”
- Turn my other friends against me
But, after all this, she was welcomed with open arms to the WPHC, again and again.
This really made me mad. Why did this girl, awful and horrible as she was, get to be their friend? Was I worse than her in their eyes?
Baby Peanut is one of the few people I’ll admit Tentacle actually ‘hacked’. She IP banned her, accessed the details to her account, and shared the chat logs with the WPHC.
I always rose up to defend Tentacle. Baby Peanut was on of the few people that Tentacle didn’t actually want to argue with. Being told to “get raped” does that to people.
Let’s skip forward to Harmony and Julie joining the Pixie Chat, shall we?
Harmony apologized, and Julie badmouthed me to Nyla.
I didn’t and wouldn’t have forgiven either of them, but I could try this whole ‘redemption’ thing, right?
This is from Julie’s first day on the Pixie Chat:
I took the high road and didn’t bring up our unfortunate and entangled past. I could have, and definitely wanted to, but I decided I didn’t want to stir up trouble.
Well, Julie and Harmony didn’t have to have qualms about stirring up trouble at all!
Whether it was being extremely crude and insulting a non-existent overweight woman, swearing non-stop, or adding their other vulgar and crude friends to the chat, nobody seemed to stop them.
Julie could leave and re-enter the chat thrice a week! Harmony could swear and swear and swear!
Speaking of vulgar and crude, Breezy enters the scene at this time.
Breezy, Breezy, Breezy.
What should we do about her?
Well, let me give you a bit of insight into her character.
Not only this, but she happened to have to unfortunate habit of screenshotting everything I said and sending it to Julie.
I decided I would try to reduce stress as much as possible (I did have a motherfrogging STROKE, in case anyone forgot) by ignoring them completely.
Harmony had been removed from the chat at this point (though Angie immediately put her back in, directly undermining my authority, we got her removed, a minor victory) for this image:
This is a whole nother story in itself, but here’s a summary:
I snapped. They sent awful messages to me privately, and pixies told me to “ignore it”. I did not ignore them, but sent equally awful messages back. I’m sure Breezy, Julie, and Harmony will bring these up later, so I’m admitting to it now.
Am I ashamed of what I said? Not really. Should I not have said it? Probably, but they shouldn’t have started it. Would I do it again? Oh, frogs yes. It felt so good. So good.
This didn’t work well either! Ignoring them made them insult me more!
Damned if I do, double-damned if I don’t, apparently.
And, what did the lovely pixies of the chat do as I was being openly bullied and harassed?
Try to convince me to talk to her!
Wow, you guys are the greatest! Trying to force me to speak with someone I loathe with the very depths of my soul? Guess who wins the friendship of the year award??
After dramatic exit number eight, Julie got added to the chat again!
Then, Faye discovered who had reported Harmony/Orchid Magicheart (my good friend, not bad Harmony).
It. Was. Breezy.
Or, as Breezy revealed, one of her friends had reported her, on their account.
Can you guess who??
Well, let’s look over the clues:
Reported her for a statement she knows was out of context.
Knows Harmony/Orchid is my very good friend
Is super-duper petty.
All clues point to…
Naturally, I was ticked off to the nth degree.
Here’s a few screenshots of the events that followed:
These blatant threats towards me were pretty much ignored by Rose and the rest of the pixies on the chat, but I’ll get into that later. Very much into it.
I practically have to beg for Rose to remove them from the chat.
I have to explain why I want to ban people who are blatantly threatening me.
I don’t know. Am I not trustworthy?
Rose even went so far as to say “Julie hasn’t done anything in a while.”
Well, take a gander at the screenshots above. Funny thing is, Rose was present for most of these! Apparently, it takes me begging and pleading to get something done around here.
Unwisely, Rose gave them 12 hours to say goodbye.
I’m going to sound bitter, but I really am.
That was a stupid thing to do. How come they get 12 hours to say goodbye? They’ve had weeks and weeks of “Yell at Raven and Get Out of Jail Free” cards. That’s for later in this post, though.
Long story short, Julie left right away and Breezy got her friends on the chat, removed the rest of the pixies, and I could’ve told you so.
Now, Breezy is demanding that I get removed if they want the chat back, claiming I ‘harassed’ her, and other vile, vile things.
And who is to blame for this?
All of the members of the Pixie Chat who stood by and watched as I was repeatedly bullied and harassed.
That includes the people reading this.
I told you I had a history with Julie and Harmony. You didn’t listen. You let them get away with anything. You gave them too many chances. You didn’t consider how it made me feel.
So, let me tell you how it made me feel.
It made me feel worthless. Why were they held over me? If I’d done half these things, I would have been out of there in a second.
It made me feel less than. If they’d done this to Phoebe, they wouldn’t have had the chance to do this twice.
It made my blood boil every time they insulted me or attacked my friends.
It made me shake with anger and shock as pixies laughed it off and forgave them.
It made me cry, hopeless, angry tears.
Right now, I am stranded in a cabin in the woods, waiting out a storm that will probably knock out our power. My stomach is turning so badly from anger and rejection I threw up.
I’ve had to give the rootbeer float I made for myself to my sister, Dalila. Oh, that’s right. Dalila Pineforest is my sister. She’s stood up for me in the Pixie Chat when no one else, not a single person, has.
So, I’d like you, the bystanders, to feel ashamed. I’d like for you to feel as awful as I do, because you let this happen. You didn’t stand up for me, you didn’t speak up, you didn’t do anything until I begged you to, and now it’s too late.
Yes, Breezy, Julie, and Harmony started this, but you finished it.